Well, I guess Im going to have to have the ECT. There is nothing left to do. We pushed the meds to the max and I started getting irregular heartbeat so that’s that. AND come to find out I have to STAY in the hospital for the first “few” treatments (how many are few?) And then I can do outpatient. Hmmmm. See, evertythings got to be so damn hard. Now Brent will have to deal with everything and the house will go to shit, (sorry Brent) Jackson will run amuk and I’ll have to come home to that. Not like we have anyone who would offer to come clean the house for me. OH OH I have to tell you…I went out to get my eyebrows waxed, as usual and I usually have her do the sides of my mouth because I get long white hairs…uhg. So….she rips the living shit out of my face and it doesnt usually hurt but this was a new girl.I look in the mirror and I look like I’ve been burnt. And now, I have all these bumps on my forehead from where she waxed above my brows. They have to be gone by Sat because that’s my reunion night. I finally found an outfit to wear….I just know I’m going to look stupid…compaired to the elite crowd. But I’m just hoping all the pretty girls are wrinkled like prunes and are drunkards. HAHAHA.

If anyone knows how to get rid of these bumps please let me know

Here he is, my little 4th grader!!!! I haven’t gotten the real pics back yet so I’m posting the proof. He has a much prettier smile than that but you know how these people are, they dont try and get the kids to smile naturally, everything is forced.

My knee surgery is scheduled for Nov 3. The doctor wants to do it earlier but with Brent being out of town, the class reunion coming up and then our trip to Topeka, there’s just no way I can do it. Life gets in the way. I got my usual aspiration done yesterday and then a cortisone shot in the knee. I hurt pretty bad yesterday but today it’s better So the cortisone does help. Jack has been home because of teacher workshop and we’ve been decorating the house. That boy has taken 3 packages of spider webs and has done the whole front yard. It actually looks great and I’m not a fan of spider webs because they are so hard to take down. Of course I get the honors of taking everything down the day after. Brent will be at work and Jackson at school so it’s up to SUPERMOM!!!!! Then the decor will start for Thanksgiving. I dont really go all out for that but I do have wreaths and a ceramic turkey, little knick knacks to set around. I might go to Tuesday Morning and see what they have. That’s a great store and pretty stuff for really cheap prices. The problem is I dont have that many places to put the decorations. Since we remodeled the house, I really got rid of alot of clutter, tables and things that just got in the way so things are much more open now, My entertainment center has lots of glass shelves but they aren’t very high so I have to watch what I buy. I have loads of Cmas decorations but…well see how many get placed. I want to have a garage sale so badly and I just havent either felt up to it, (pricing the stuff is the worse) or I havent had the time so now it’s Oct and getting cold, no one will want to get out and come, so I’m going to take the whole winter and price, tag and sort all the stuff and clothes I have (I hate selling Jackson’s baby clothes) and that way I will be ready when spring comes.

I am not looking forward to winter. I hate winter. I dont know why but it is very depressing. Jackson’s birthday is coming up Nov 29 and I have no idea what we’re going to do for it. I’m thinking bowling party. It’s different. I get sick of the usual Chucky Cheese deal and he’s getting to big for that stuff anyway. My baby boy will be 10 years old. It has gone by so fast…… Much faster than I ever imagined. But he’s such a great kid and so sweet and loving. I did this right for a change.

Ok, that’s about it. I’m going to try and get some things done around here today. I was supposed to take Doc up for grooming and I forgot all about it…so I called, they were not happy with me and I couldnt think of an excuse so I just apologized……assholes. I rescheduled him for Friday and put a sticky note on my computer. I love that Turbo note program that lets you put sticky notes right on your desktop. If you google it, you’ll find it. Turbo Note.

Check out the new smilies!!!!! Thanks Kay for helping me set these up. And thanks to Maely also.