Cate turned 2 on April 7, she had a darling birthday party. Granny gave her a
darling little pants suit, lime green with little fringe balls around the cuffs and
the hem of the top. Also gave her a childrens real rice pearls with a tiny
diamond in the heart for her birthstone. Also gave her some money for
her 529 plan and Jackson gave her this adorable little Easter basket with
a little blue bunny, a “snapdragon” seed inside a ceramic egg. A little candy
and he was so proud. I think it’s funny but Cate call me MiMi,
(my daughter Emily) as I look alot like Emily and they had been looking at
pictures of Emily..LOL I wish I was young as Emily.

Going to the doctors this morning because to top it all off,
I have an ingrown toenail…*sheesh*

I had a pedicure about 3 weeks ago and I think they cut the nail down
to far and it’s growing into my toe. LOLOL If anything will happen, I’m
a magnet so come get me!!!!

Here is Cate Emily Ferguson

Wanted to show everyone our family pic Easter Sunday.

Today was my second bladder installation. I was so inflammed that it took them 4 tries to cathaderize me. I was litterally falling apart and it was the most painful procedure yet. I had to wait on the valet to bring my car and it took them 20 minutes and I swear I thought I was going to faint. The pressure and pain were so bad I didnt think I would get home. I got in the door, through my purse and keys on the table. Took some pain pills and fell into bed, coat and all. I slept until 2 and called Brent and told him he would have to pick up Jackson. I came down to jot this down and get something to drink and I’m going back to bed. Thankfully it has not killed me to go to the bathroom, just uncomfortable but inside of me feels like I been hit by a truck. Later Gators.

Today I went to Cate’s birthday party. I was in so much pain but I didn’t let anyone know. I spent most of the time in the bathroom. It was a nice party but I wanted to be in bed. It’s so cold and I think I’m running a fever. We have to decorate eggs this evening and then I’m going to bed early. I was up 20 times last night and didnt even take Jack to Karate, I had Brent take him. My doctor switched me to a 75 mg Fentanyl patch and even that isn’t making a dent. I hate that Ultram because it gives me hiccups and messes up my stomach. I hope everyone has a great Easter. I have to go out to eat wtih MIL tomorrow. I don’t want to go…I just want to see Jackson find his eggs and go back to my heat pad.

I have Innerstitual Cystitis. It is a very painful syndrom that attacks the bladder and urinary tract. I’ve been in so much pain now for about a month and finally found a Urologist who doesnt think I ‘m crazy. The first URO doctor I saw diagnosed me with an over active bladder and sent me home. He did do the cystoscope and looked inside my bladder (this was a real laugh a minute procedure) He said he saw nothing so, Adios Amigo. …So..I’m laying in bed or walking doubled over. I suffer from severe bladder cramps and spasms. It’s alot like hard labor pain but in the bladder area. I feel like I have to go every few minutes and usually there’s nothing there to go. When I do go, a million bees sting me (feels like) and it usually takes me 5-10 minutes to go. It’s difficult.

Yes, the meds did this to me. Or should I say the over dose I was given by the Doctor that I put my faith in. Since he didnt write down what meds he wanted to give me, he just told the nurse and she misunderstood him. So I went from 50mg of Lamactil to 600 mg in one day. Yes, I didn’t feel comfortable so I called several times to make sure this was the right dose. I was told that’s what the doctor ordered so I started taking them. About 36 hours into taking the high dose I started itching badly all over. The burning started in the UT and I just felt very sick. I called this doctor and told them to tell him HE NEEDS TO CALL ME because this just might be an emergency. Well I thought maybe I had a UT infection but it just kept getting worse. He finally called back the NExT night about 9pm. I was freaking out because I had been given the wrong meds and it was attacking my mucous membranes. He said I needed medical help asap. Well I did that. A CT was done and nothing, URI tests came back negative, of course I stopped talking the meds and went back to my former physchiatrist. I have spoken with a lawyer and he says we may have a case. Now today I had my first Bladder Instillation. This is where they use a cath and put medicine into your bladder and you have to hold it at least 40 minutes. I have to have this done for the next 5 weeks and we’ll go from there. I am on Ultram for Pain and Bentyl for the bladder spasms which double me over. I feel bad because Jackson has to see me in so much pain and in bed now and damn if I don’t hate this whole situation and it will never go away. All we can do is treat it with meds. Funny because I used to be terrifed of cathaders but now…*sigh* it’s just something else I have to work through. I didn’t realize how many people have this but don’t no it or don’t talk about it. I’m just glad I have a doctor who knows what he’s doing. I’ll write more when I can.